爱和喜欢【你们相信吗？】

喜欢与爱的微妙区别
人世间有种情感叫“喜欢”，另一种叫“爱”。

爱是他在的时候，眼睛里只有他一人；他不在的时候，一切都带有他的影子。

喜欢是在深夜看书时突然想起他，想象他现在做什么，心里漾起一阵轻飘飘的温暖，却从不主动给他打电话。几分钟后，注意力又重新被书中的情节吸引!

爱是在寂寞的夜里，思念如潮水般涌来，手里捧着书却怎么也看不进去，心里惦记着他此时是否还在加班，吃没吃晚饭，是不是如自己想着他一般想着自己。

喜欢是和他讨论问题争的面红耳赤，各不相让，在他面前像个刺猬一样从不认输，但在心里却早已暗暗佩服他的见地他的才华。

爱是希望他和自己步调一致，和自己心灵相通，他无心说的一句玩笑话也能让自己顷刻情绪低落甚至眼泪汪汪。在他面前，自己是从不设防的。

喜欢是出门在外给他发个短信，告诉他这边的天气很好，然后把手机关掉，独自在异地疯玩一个星期，晒成一个黑人后突然出现在他面前吓他一跳。

爱是无论到哪都希望有他陪伴。可以站在海边给他打手机，让他听听海浪的声音；也可以因为在异乡的街道上看到一个酷似他的背影而愣在原地久久不动。

喜欢是他出差前简单的道一声“一路平安”，看着他离去的背影，心中有一点不舍，却什么也不说，只是默默等待他归来的消息。

爱是他临出差前千叮咛万嘱咐，往他的背包里塞满衣服和食物，在车站要等到火车开走才肯离开。并且在他走后的日子里天天心神不定，一遍遍的祈祷他能够平安归来。

喜欢是在受伤的时候，不想让他看到自己脆弱的一面，在他面前把眼泪悄悄抹掉，转过头依然是一副快乐坚强的模样。

爱是在受委屈的时候，爬在他的胸前痛哭，没有伪装没有顾虑，把所有的烦恼统统告诉他，并渴望从他的怀抱中得到安慰。

喜欢是和他周末逛街逛累了一起吃肯德基；是在寒冷的冬天和他抢一杯热咖啡；是和他并肩走在街上中间始终隔着半米的距离；是陪他一起在电脑前打游戏两个人笑的像个孩子。

爱是周末利用半天时间亲手做出几道好菜满足的看他吃下去；是在寒冷的冬天不断为他的咖啡杯里续上热水；是和他走在街上任由他紧紧挽着自己的手；是在他旁边安静着做着，幸福地看着他在电脑前工作时专心的样子。

喜欢是听他讲自己童年的趣事，然后哈哈大笑，心中涌起一阵莫名的感动。

爱是听他将自己童年的趣事，然后微微一笑，心中更加怜惜眼前这个曾经如此调皮捣蛋的男人。

喜欢是在楼道里碰上他，愉快的和他打声招呼，再简单寒暄几句，擦肩而过的时候看见了窗外明媚的阳光，心情无端好了起来。

爱是在楼道了看见他，脸上装出一副毫不在乎的表情，但在擦肩而过时细心感受身边颤动的空气，于是忍不住回头望一眼。

喜欢是看到他和另一个女孩牵手走过，心里有一点点疼，但很快会冲着朝阳重新扬起笑脸。

爱是输不爱是输不起的游戏，付出全部只后，留下的可能仅仅是刻在心底的一道伤痕。

喜欢一个人是想要他是自己的，所以，可以喜欢很多人，想要很多人都是自己的。

爱是明明离不开他，却要不得不放弃他，因为他要的幸福，也许我给不了。不敢霸占他，希望看他找到幸福，即使那份幸福不是跟我分享的。

喜欢是，希望寂寞的时候，无聊的时候，伤感的时候，找个人说说话。

爱是，在任何时候都想跟他分享，快乐的时候甚至希望把错有快乐都给了他。

喜欢是，在很久很久没联络的时候，接到他的电话，然后笑着听他说话。 爱是，在几天没有联络的时候，着急得的打电话给他，然后忍住眼泪笑一笑。

喜欢，只有在一起的时候，才惦记着对方。

爱，是哪怕是在一起，每一秒钟也都在思念思念他。

喜欢一个人，多数许多朋友，也会觉得快乐。

爱一个人，是多一个人，都会难受的两个人的世界。

喜欢一个人，是甜腻的。

爱一个人，是苦尽甘来的。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心。

Friday again...

I wish no Friday in my life...
But impossible so I accept d...
When ever Friday is near my heart or mood will be down...
Hate!!! Hate!!! Hate!!!
What to do...I dn have any choices...
(Wrote this while listen to 专属天使）

What I want to tell you today:
1. Sit at sch like sohai...bt you got sms me awhile lo...I keep say wan meet you I knw is impossible but I really miss you...what to do again...mah sit there like sohai lo...but I gt talk with my frens lo such as jeline's ah bii, music society's frens and sze mei...haiz...hate the feeling but ntg can do...

2. After that I skip a lesson then I go class at 2pm lo...That time I get my pr fair's t-shirt...baby T S size means really small d...OMG!!! that gal(You knw who I mention) also take same size with us...really cnt imagine if she wear it will look like wat? Bao Cempaka???

3. Then I go find sponsor after class...sze mei fetch me there...We go "Cocoa Boutique" dulu...the chocolate there really delicious...bt expensive nia-- a small piece also need RM3...really expensive...But I so bad luck I "tang" my leg cz I touch the paip accidentally...
Then go Queensbay find those sponsors...sian la all wan ask their main company wan wait wait wait...really pek cek...but no choice...need to wait also...

4. When on the way back...mamy said wan go Dannis's saloon wash hair...then I mah said ok cz i really no mood, maybe after wash my hair will ok abit...But still same cz You said wont on9...mapuki...suack liao lo...then I mah waste my time at saloon do hair treatment and keep ask this ask that lo...I really like the way Ah Shen wash my hair so smooth and gently not like my mamy and sister d...so rude wan garu tak tak d...then Ah Shen wan massage for me but I stop him cz I cnt accept(Bcz my sis and mamy got massage by Dannis and Kheng Huat)...geli nia...I dn like...
I also knock my head again...fuck la really BLACK FRIDAY for me...so hate nia...then they all laugh me lo...said me so rush for wat...hopefully is plstik nia but pain oso la...Dannis said maybe after 6 months I will cut my hair d...cz I WAN BE A GIRL...no more guy's attitudes...I WILL DO IT...Dannis also said when I relax and play with my hair look attractive(He is teaching Ah Shen the ways to create a more beautiful shape)...But I no believe la...so 4get about it...

I think this is what I want tell you ba...haiz...dno what you doin...
Why cnt on9??? Bcz she will kap siao??? sien la...
p/s: My mum's fren said me more thin than before d...What to do a...I really cnt eat much mah...whatever la...feel out of mood and no gas liao...NO MEET,NO ACC...I MISS MY COW COW...will you take care it carefully??? That's all for today ba...no your acc my time really hard to pass...no choice I need to take it easy so that I wont think much and keep disturb you and her...stop here ba...tired liao...no feel wan say much...want sms you but stop half way cz scare let you all argue again...so 4get about it...I sleep beter...take care...

P/s: My frens jio me go drink cz got "ge tai" but I reject d...stay at home beter la cz I know I will drunk...so dn go beter la...

30/7/09

Today is a bad day for me...

I really hate it...

WTF!!!!!!!

I cried today at foyer and in front of my frens...

really fuck man!!!

So shamful...

Haiz...

bt no choice...too stress...

Many things happened suddenly and at the same time...

You nt around me...

so my frens an wei me only...

so pity hor...

Then today u suddenly sms told me that your back pain...

Haiz...i realy not si xin...

she told u buy plaster to paste it bt i no think tiok...

hehe...so good hor...

dn wan think much le...

let it be ba...

I jz noe worry nia dno cn do wat...

so stupid! so no use! so behki...

suddenly miss my cow cow...dno how le...

acc u when u slp? or jz put beside?

wan hug it d...

I so useless and selfish to u...

I jz noe all jz nw...

my mood totaly down...

feel wanna cry...

feel wanna go out alone...

feel wan drink again till i drunk...

bt...

I wont do so...

I want be a good gal...

I will slp early everynite...

I realy out of control d...

Hate so...

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Why I like tat...

sien la...

so noob la me...

This Is The 1 I Wan You Ans...

1. Who was your FIRST lover?
哲铨
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Yes
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
XO
4. What was your FIRST job?
Haven work b4
5. What was your FIRST car?
Proton Wira(Seem like not belongs to me)
6. Who was the FIRST person you meet today?
My sis(she wake me up)
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Babe(sms him)
8. Who was your FIRST idol?
Jay Chou
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
Malacca
10. Who was your FIRST best friend?
Quah Chun Hao(since kindergarten)
11. Who will you think FIRST when you are sad or happy?
Babe
12. Who was the FIRST person you talked phone to today?
Babe(get diao cz wake him up early in the morning)
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My mummy's relative(at Malacca where i lost my 1st watch...cry for many days)
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Find my hp
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
夏日八度(Where i started to admire动力火车）
16. FIRST tattoo?
Planning to do so
17. FIRST piercing?
5/6 years old(4get d)
18. FIRST foreign country you've gone to?
Bangkok
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
Jurassic Park
20. When was your FIRST dated with ur gf/bf?
Prangin mall(Accompany by my friends too)
22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Haven stay outside b4
23. If you had one wish, what would it be?
I wish I can live forever with my lover
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Electronic guitar & Bass(So cool)
25. What was your FIRST crazy thing u did before?
Kissed by a LESBIAN(OMG!!!!!)
26. What was the first sport you were involved in?
Netball
27. What was the FIRST experience that make you unforgetable?
被海浪冲走却被救回了
28. What is the FIRST thing you do when you get home?
Inform babe
29. Where is the FIRST place you think want to go when you sad?
My room(To find my pig pig)
30. What you wish to do with your FIRST salary?
Give to mummy(Don said me mummy babe!!!)

29/7/2009 Not really happy...

Today I make ah be angry again...y i like tat???
So sad...haiz...dno wat i cn do or cnt do...
I so happy mah? I so song mah? I so comfortable without him around me?
the ans is NO!!! I only happy and satisfy when he stay beside me...
bt he not believe me d...haiz...maybe wat u see u only believe nia...i so like te ppl meh?
i like te u nia...bt u no understand...so heart break...nvm i will try to understand wat u think lo...i will nt go clubing d...i hate go liao...cz u said tat 'as long as i noe wat i do, go oso ntg d..' do u noe wat i feel when u say so...haiz...yaya...im selfish...yaya...i like tat d...yaya...i folo my mood to do my things...i get it all...so i dno wat i good for u...seem so useless...haiz...maybe i so noob for u ba...
I feel happy cz i had present u the cow i like it...i realy like it cz realy nice n cute...i love it so much...it seem look like u...so chubby...bt u said nt suit u and bla bla...ya lo...i so childish tat i no think wat u wan and jz gv u wat i like...btw if she hug or touch it, i wont noe...bt i realy hope tat she wont do so...cz i present u nt for her to touch it or wat...tis i realy cnt take it, i will selfish for it...i dno wat u think bt it represent me...i jz wan u see it or touch it b4 u sleep...
Actualy what i realy happy is u send the msg b4 saying tat 'thank you...u present me the cow..bt no next time..kep the money..' i realy happy and touch when i read it bt u dno...u thought i realy happy bcz of that keychain...do u noe the keychain i had 3 b4 le...wat so special for me abt tat??? i jz happy when u sent that msg for me...bt u no blieve me...u believe ur eyes nia...is ok d...i will understand...maybe i cnt talk so much or wat i wan i will think b4 do so that i wont hurt u or too control over u...Wednesday again...clubing time for u...i noe u wont go cz u promise me...so i will believe it...

Tats all for today...no mood wan continue le...cz u oso dn wan chat with me...seem tat everyday oso wan quarrel...haiz...is tat like tat if closer with sumone???

Get tagged!!!!

遊戲規則：
1. 被點名的人在我空間將這篇文章轉載到自己空間中，然後在編輯， 刪去我的答案，要在自己的Q空間裡寫下自己的答案，然後傳給其他人， 列出個需要回答問題的人的名字，通知對方被點名了， 被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。2. 這個人要在自己的Q空間裡註明是從哪裡接到問題的， 並且再想一個題目傳給其他個人，讓幸福的遊戲繼續下去。3. 不能回傳，否則犯規！4. 被點到名字的人將得到大家的祝福，並且所有的美麗願望都會在不久後實現。

★.PART ONE
Q01、你的大名？KIMBERLY
Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福？ STAY WITH OUR BELOVED TILL THE DAY WE DEAD
Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要，為什麼？ BOTH. NO REASONS
Q04、你相信天長地久嗎？NO SUCH THINGS IN MY LIFE
Q06、你現在過得快樂麼？ SO SO LO
Q07、如果有秘密，你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎？BASED ON SITUATION
Q08、喜歡小Baby嗎？THEY ARE SCARY WHEN CRY...SO DEPENDS LA
Q09、覺得友情是永遠的麼？ NOT SURE
Q10、希望自己多大結婚？DEPENDS
Q11、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情？YES
Q12、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好？ STRAIGHT
Q13、最想去哪裡旅遊？ JAPAN(MY DREAM)
Q14、一輩子都不會忘記的事？MANY
Q15、如果愛一個人，是不是要拼命挽回他？NOT REALLY. AS LONG AS HE HAPPY
Q16、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰？ BABE
Q17、你會愛他一輩子麼？ NOT SURE WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE
Q18、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人，你會選哪個？ BOTH OSO DON WAN
Q19、你會以何種方式表現你對他（她）的愛？ LOVE HIM AS MUCH AS I CAN
Q20、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼？抱著他？SIT BESIDE HIM SILENTLY
Q21、如果你想痛扁一個人，你希望那個人是？ WHO I HATE
Q22、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎？ DNO KNOW LO. MAYBE YES MAYBE NO
Q23、現在最迷什麼？ MUSIC INSTRUMENTS
Q24、你是好孩子嗎？ NOP
Q25、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要？ BREAD. NO MONEY NO TALK
Q26、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣？ CRY UNTIL MY TEARS DRY
Q27、如果你的BF（GF）經常不回家的話，你會怎樣？ TELL HIM SUMONE IS WAITING
Q28、现在给你勇气，你最想做些什么事？ DRIVE MY CAR

★.PART TWO
01、是誰傳給你這份問卷的？ JOEL
02、你們認識多久呢？ 不清楚
03、TA對你來說重要嗎？ 不能比我的他重要
04、你與TA的關係是？ 朋友
05、請問TA的興趣是？ 不懂
06、你覺得TA的個性如何？ 不了解
07、TA在你心目中是幾分？ 人没有十全十美
08、睡覺前第一件事？開風扇？喝水？ 跟我的他说电话
09、你的偶像？ 周杰伦
10、你喜歡的季節？ 最讨厌热天
11、你打工麼？ 没有
12、打工次數？ 没打过工
13、你想去的國家？ 日本
14、你討厭什麼樣的個性？ 斤斤计较
15、你會抽煙麼？ 不
16、你會喝酒麼？ 我是酒鬼
17、你常哭麼？ 是
18、你常笑麼？ 常常。因为三八
19、你喜歡去哪玩？ 游乐场。因为长不大
20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼？ 不喜欢
21、是假日時你都睡到幾點？ 看情况。可是ah be醒我也醒（因为我吵他的）
22、今天的天氣是？ 阴天
53、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎？ 无止尽

★.PART THREE
54、我的BGM好听么？ 什么来
55、你的皮包里有什么说说吧？ 钱、卡、个人照。。。
56、你生命中最重要的人是？ 家人和我的爱
57、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀？ 最讨厌辣
58、现在有喜欢的人吗？ 有
59、你還喜歡他(她)嗎? 爱
60、你觉得我坏吗？ 不会
61. 怎样才是真正的爱？ 无条件的付出

加油！！！

Today i had control my tempered towards them...
I no diao them or wat bt jz tel them nicely...
This is my 1st step to change my attitude...
I think it will getting beter soon...><
But maybe without ur nagging i wont so guai lo...so u look ah pek...wakakakaka...

Ohya...today i heard u said that tis sem break will go clubing bt haiz...
Feel tat if u go again will get trouble...sien nia...jz feel that if u no go is more beter lo bt i noe u promise ur frens le...so 4get abt it...
Aiya...cz u too KIND liao la...behtahan nia...y u so kind leh??? cnt cool a bit meh??? I say say nia la...dn angry lo...haiz...think so much buat apa...chi pek!!!!

Assignment keep rushing rushing rushing seem cnt finish d...
y like tat d...Who cn help me???? JZ MYSELF!!!
Now i only realize wat had happen to them...aiyo...sien la...
The technology nwadays so hightech bt dno used...WTF!!!!!!!!! gt probs oso dn wan discuss n find us...realy damn stupid...jz now i jz settle sum nia...hope this thursday will settle all cz realy no time liao...pls change u all eh attitude...abo i will get mad again!!!!!!!!!

Walao e........wat gonna i done this few days...i so tired and sleepy la...
But later need rush my assignment again...realy unfair bt no choice la...IM SO GOOD...so the marks will be same lo although i and my fren do nia...bt wat cn i do...same class, small coursemate, small group for so many projects so ntg i cn blame...jz blame myself y so XIN RUAN...no next time d...realy no gd the feel...

Haiz...is time to rush my assignment liao...and nd wait ah be on9...sien...><"

~Sweet Sweet Memory~

huhuhuhuhuhu....
happy nia....

没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使
没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使
没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代妳在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是妳出现　
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为　
生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁
妳是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代妳在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

From the above i understand all....song....><

Sien la...
While waiting for YOU so i update my blog lo...

Today our sch organized dno wat valentine d la(lunar d)...
Not so interested lo...><"
recently so busy!busy!busy!
Ohya...actualy i so beh song them...WTF!!!!!!!!! assignment all so near liao still dno cum find me...
wan i go find u all...sum ko stim stim dno wat assignment is running still wan ask me!!!!!!realy @#$%^&(I noe no rude words le or else i will get scold d==')
But i realy cnt tahan la!!!!! why they all like tat d....all of them dno wat they should do or should not do eh meh??????? Walao e.......

Feel wan go enjoy after all my assignment settle or mayb sem break la...dno yet...
long time no drink liao...wan drunk for it...be......PLS LET ME DRINK..............pls...............
Dn worry i will invite u go with me d........cz i noe u will kep sms me nonstop d.......blek...
Btw my buddies they always said me cnt go clubing with them.....so sien la.......dn suan me liao.......i jz lazy go nia cz i go till sien la........if other place d nvm la.........cz i haven go b4 mah........btw...........sum1 dn let me drink liao.........kia me sit dai........swt..........bt gd la.........i understand d..............

stop here ba........chating liao.............
wahahaha.......

"SKY found his ANGEL but CANT hold it tight"

Huhu...my frens, finaly im back to update my blog...
seem a long time din update my blog d...
suddenly got the FEEL to update it after read sumone's blog...><"

Why i put tis sentence?? quite weird lo bt i like it...=='
Today is SUNDAY bt i woke up so early cz i make sumone tulan, behsong and oso dissapointed...im so bad hor...haiz...bt no choice...
I nt dare tell tat person oso cz i will cry...(p/s: I wont cry anymore, cz i will change soon)
So, i read a few ppl's blog n i jz realize tat everyone had their own story in their life...even if we feel tat a person is happy bt he/she NOT; if sumone look moody or sad everyday mayb tis is he/she PROBLEMS etc...

Now i got my own prob n trouble oso...
Many many many things happen recently...
im big enough to handle all of that nt like a kid tat jz will cry n escape the prob(p/s: although i look like kid bt IM NOT)...
Day after day those prob become near and near...
Haiz...so headache...dno wanhow to settle all...bt i will do it step by step and try to control my temper...Im sorry to all my frens, if i black face or diao u all b4 pls 4gv me...i will change my tempered d...especially YOU cz i noe i always diao you until u speechless and i promise you i will change my attitude to a GIRL...wakakaka...so serious hor...=)

Wat should i do nw...so helpless...haiz...
I hope wat i wish can come true nw...bt it wont be...
I noe u oso realize that bt you said d u will tulan and beh song...
I noe bt i no choice...i oso wan go mah...NO...I DAMN WAN GO more fulfill my mood nw...
If u wan suan me or wat i no offence liao...wont diao back you...

Ohya...last night i vy guai no go watch racing although many gangs had went to it bt not me...
I love watch race..
I am a drinker...
I join with black world frens...
I do wat guys done...
I dno wat a gal should be look like although im a gal cz i seldom join my gfs'...
I am not a smoker although the frens around me are smokers(include gals)...
etc...
From the above of situation, WAT is the CONCLUSION??? Im bad? Im samseng? Im a gd gal? Im a gal which nd change back to wat a gal should be?? and so..so..so..

My brain nw had flow out wat u said me..wat u tel me..wat u diao me..
Bt wat can i do...i will change nia lo...ASAP lo...(p/s: i oso no confidence tat i cn change so soon cz for me it is a BIG challenge!!!!)

Ok la...i will stop here cz no mood continue liao...
I will update my blog everyday if I free la..no free no choice lo...
Haiz...i need to make up my mood to settle my things or else i will KI SIAO again...too bad...